I can honestly say that I consider myself extremely blessed to be living the dreams and callings that the Lord has put in my heart. I truly believe that out His sovereign will, way before I even existed, He created me, gifted me and wired me for this path of my life that He also opened door for me to set foot on.
Yet, in the last couple of years, as I poured myself to work on something that I think He wired me for, I also ran into several major set back, road blocks and detour that are quite hard for me to take.
Dear Father,
When Your answer for my prayers, dreams and plans of deep longing is "Not Yet",
I pray that your Spirit transforms my disappointment into a holy patience, that come from a firm conviction from the deepest part of my soul that
a) You are sovereign
b) Your love for me is deeper than what I can understand
c) Your paths and plans for me are always for my blessings and never for my harm
May I be still before You, Lord. Yet I cannot possibly attain such stillness by my own will or effort. Holy Spirit, may You grant me a new nature within me that is capable of such stillness before my Lord such that I do not lose heart!
Though outwardly, i am wasting away, yet inwardly, I am renewed day by day. For these light and momentous troubles are achieving for me an eternal glory that far out weight them all.
So Lord, open up my eyes so I can see what my eyes cannot see that is dear to Your heart. Take my eyes off from what is seen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal!
Father, as long as You are with me through these ups and downs, I can press on!
